There is hope you for. Take the class and your mind will be filled with many options for how to make this happen.

I will say that an LHBA home is extremely labor intensive. If you are unable to do things like crawling around on a 20' log wall while drilling 1/2 holes every few feet down the length of the log, following by driving hundreds of rebar stakes into those holes, either with a sledge hammer or an electric driving tool of some kind, you'll just need to find another way to get it done.

Family, friends, deals with LHBA members, and paid labor are all options. And there are others as well.

If it is really a dream for you, and you are willing to work very hard for it, it's absolutley possible. Step 1 is take the class.